I'm Fine! What if instead of my mind It was my leg that broke And instead of racing thoughts I just had a hacking cough? Holding my breath Shaking my head Laughing but my eyes swollen shut Now I see it all My svelte body Half moon eyes Toothless smile Through the perilous night Proved that I was still here Now I’m like sequins in the sky Laughter bursts out of my core My belly aches And it jiggles! What if instead of saying “I’m fine” My skin turned, blue, then purple, then g

How do I say my stomach is in knots? How do I say my brain is rotten? How do I say my warm, beating heart, full of insect wings, turned icy cold? How do I say: hold me. Overnight, I grew a shiny black hump. I turned into a beetle. All six feet want to run, like horses with wide eyes. All four eyes want to glance away, like a man caught doing crime. How can I say it? I can’t even say it. Stop throwing apples at me.

I wrote to you again, but only met with silence, my friend. I read your last message again to the world, and to yourself about escaping...

In this place there is no me. I look in the mirror and all I see is a strangersuffering. She lays in bed for hours, tending to a baby...

I standin the kitchen. On the counter I imagine a scene. I grab a sharp knife, gleaming to a point. Instead of the meat from the...

Depression I wore you once Like the blue dress my mother made me wore When I was a child Itchy Wanting to take you off But forced to smile and nod And perhaps I’ve worn you since Like when my mother fixed my hem A thread must have caught my skin And you got sewed in Years it rested a minor blemish Between my dermis  shielded me from connection growing a deep pain And when I gave life With a roaring cry A heavy black coat fell Draped over my eyes My mouth My mind  even my hear

Honestly, I was a mess. Tears round the clock except when I got some rest. Salt lined the edges, gathered into monumental crystals living...

Oh hello, its you again I've seen you before in here there's an echo going on and on hollow the air suffocating haunting the light...